Love is a slippery path

Love is a slippery path. Don't you agree? I definitely do. Now the scenario is that Mr. A love Ms. B and vice-versa. When Mr. A first saw Ms. B: Cupid made a move. Arrow was shot and Bulls eye.

Love bloomed. They spend time together. If Ms. B would smile, Mr. A show his bright 32. There were sms send, calls made. Ofcourse, everyone else thought that they merely exchanged notes. It went around for a month but still they never had touched each other. It was looks and words.

Then Ms. B started appearing in Mr. A's dreams. Ah! Dreams! Dreams that he saw with his eyes closed were not as beautiful as with eyes open. With open eyes he dreams of holding her hand and proposing.

Looks like all love till here. There a catch. This 'holding her hand' will usually be the place when they start getting comfortable with touching each other. The best thing about the devil is that no one is able to see him coming. Same case here. How this LOVE: 'holding the hand' -> 'holding her' -> hugs -> kisses -> sex: LUST happens, Mr. A or Ms. B is unaware. But slowly love dies out and body dependencies take its place. Love has lost and Lust has won.

And thats the reason why the topic is 'Love is a slippery path.'
Lets start loving!

Mona to Bharti

That is how i can sum up my b'day this year. Mona is my cousin. She was the first caller to wish me b'day. Although ted had wished me earlier on 23rd by mail. IBut right now i am just writing this because i liked the title when i came to my mind.

After that got several calls. And last caller on 24th night was Bharti. She said that it had to be either the first one or the last one. Agreed. :)

Thanks to all who wished me. May God fulfill everyones good wishes. Amen

2 post a day, keeps blog readers away

Title is among the best poetry i have ever written. See, it rhymes.

But that not what this is post is about.

There are two philosophies i have:
1) I can ask God for whatever and how much ever i want. Ofcourse he is like my dad, who won't give me everything i ask. But if i ask more probability of getting it increases.

2) I should never ask God for anything. God can give everything, because he created everything, BUT. Whats the use asking for things that ultimately i have to leave and go after my death. Ofcourse he is my dad and he will give me everything i need(not everything i want).

And you know what. right now i want to make a wish. actually i have wanted to ask him that wish nearly daily. But till date i have been confused about which philosophies should i rely upon.
Request to the reader. Please decide which philosophy applies for you. If first one does then ask him to fulfill my wish. If yours in second one, then for this moment shift your philosophy to the first and ask him to fulfill my wishing. Kidding again. You don't have shift your philosophy for my wish. probably according to you, some day i will be wise and will realize that nothing matters. Nothing at all. And the only thing that matters(God), i would not have given a thought.

Its beginning. That physo thing which get better of me like the 1st nov. post. so i am leaving before i turn this post into a crap. Its crap but that mood of mine will make it crappier.

I am a life

Yes.. title means that i am still alive :P

But this post is not about me. But about how i feel about a few others.

Ted : A very nice guy. A very good person to have as a friend. He dosen't forget things, so i am rest assured he won't forget me. Now, coming to the more important part: answer to the question "why is he being mentioned here?" So, the answer is that is also my best friend. Thats why. Ted, I love you.

Vinit : Another gem. Can talk anyone out of his words. Best Friend. I know that their might be a day when i might not be on his side, but it won't happen otherwise. Vinit, I love you too.

Bazooka : I don't even remember his real name. May not be among my best friends list but for sure he deserves a mention. Why? Because he, i feel, is among those who feel for their friends. Really. Kind at heart. Nice guy to be friends with. Bazooka, I love you three.

Tarzan (suranjan) : Another gem. Why should i mention him here? Because he has all the qualities a person requires to find a mention in each of his frineds blog. I love you four.

Dufu (mayank) : Junior but a friend. Strong. Tall. Among the guys i would like to be. Dufu, I love you five.

Pandu Sir : Friend , philosopher , guide. Do i need to say more. He is one person i really look up to. He find the mention because of the clarity he has in philosophies he tells. I will always remember time i spent with him. Although i fear him but still, Sir, I love you six.

Deepankar (babu) : Another childhood friend. Friend, and a bengali. His sermons. His laughs. Hearty laughs. The chats we had. Long ones. Below the porch of his home. And his long walks. Babu, I love you seven.

Amit Nigam : Another guy i don't understand. But he does understand me. This man considers me to be one great guy. I know the reason why : he hasn't met the people i have mentioned above. I can credit him for my selection in IIT. Good guy. Would like to hear from him more often. Amit, I love you eight.

Vinitha Nair( billi) : This girl deserves a mention. And a very well deserved one. This gal has a good sense of humor and her spirit. The undying spirit to live it up. And her consistent good morning mails. I love you nine.

Bharti : Sweet. She is sweety. Yep that her nick back home. And a very apt one. Ofcourse, i am brahmin and like sweets. For her things are different. He philosophy: 'She will love you till she lives, not till you live'. Precisely the reason she finds a mention. Given the power to change anything, i believe i will leave her unchanged. Bharti, I love you ten.

Uncle ji( my mama ji) : He is not a friend but much much more. He means much more to mean than all the names above put togther. Nothing above him. NO ONE above him. I Love him n Hazaar.

People who don't find mention, don't deserve it. Kidding yaar. Just that i thought about mentioning a few that rung a bell in mind now. Just wait for the day your name starts ringging.

I am also sure that if i go by bell ringing thing, few names will find place in every post. Ted, Bharti, Vinit...

i wanna cry but i won't

its not a post.. its what i am feeling now. I feel something in my heart. a little pain. I know why i feel it. Have met a lot of people. I know how it feels to have no one to guide and no to yell on you. But i am not feeling that because of this reason. Because i can't say it to anyone neither can i put it in writing. Its a secret thats been with me long time. Its killing me. Not a day goes by when i don't think about it but but but... i can't do anything about it. You know why? Because i am doing a business thats why?

I know that i -----------(contains spaces also)

its like all my energy has been drained out of my body. I feel no strength.

I am a bad person. I used to think that i am one guy whose got great friends. I mean to say that i am great guy with whom other can be friend with. But i am not a great friend. I know it. Ted is far better than me. Vinit is. So many others are. Why not me.

For long i wanted to pen my thoughts. I need to tell it someone. It hard keeping it all with my self. I know what love is. I mean i understand what pure/true love is. I also know that mine is not pure/true love. But believe me when i say that its deep. May not be pure but it is deep. And i don't wanna come out to the pure side of love. I am no saint who can love all. My love is selfish. I am an average person.

Been really long before i suceed. And then i will tell her but then it might be too late.

Pata hai.. why do i call myself not a good person. I will tell you. Because i am not happy that my dad and my family love me soooooo very much. my uncle who is not in good health travels 100 kms on bus to see me. because he loves me soooo much. I am here. Just doing nothing, Talking about a crush or love whatever it is. I am doomed.

Do you know when i was in 8th std. i got 13/100 in biology exam.

whatelse....

i know that i will achieve all what i have decided to do. but i really don't know how it would feel being there all alone. i don't believe that i will be all alone there. if not she, someone else. But. I mind is playing games with me.

i don't know how will my life change change.. wheather it will cahnge at all if she says yes. God knows. There . I also know that life is an illusion. It will end. Death is a reality which will finally come. But again i am just another normal guy. Knowing the truth i am doing ntohing. You know... at several ocassions i think of things i will do if i come to know that earth is goin to end tomorrow. I will call ted. I will talk to vinit. and i will talk to ....... But i won't tell her even then about it. Because she will feel bad in case she will ahve to say no to me.


And then i will feel much more miserable. yes now i got the word. I am feeling miserable.


Didn't i say i am a bad person. i just proved it. see i did not mention that i would talk to my mum, dad and uncle and brothers and my nephew and niece. Thus proved.


i still won't cry because bad boys don't cry. they make others cry. bye.

i bet no one will reach this post till the end. just to see who does... can you make a guess of the fill in the blank that i left empty. try it alteast. if you are not able to think comment saying rani mukherjee. but that doesn't meet the dots.. does it. no it doesn't.

anyways i am screwed. bye. again bbye.

a vote of thanks

C. Pandurangan, guide till now, has also become a mentor from this day. Bharti and i had came to lab for some work and so did he. Then he made little tea for himself. He offered it to Bharti and myself. Guess what? yep, it was tea time. Bharti and myself had tea cups in our hands and sir was standing infornt of us. Wallah! the chat began.

He has always been a great orator and he proved it yet again. He began with his how he always feels young and mixes with kids wherever he goes. He recalled an incident when he (over)heard his father-in-law say to a person who had come asking for him in a marriage function, 'he would be telling stories to kids, just search him around where you find children'. He told us how fond he was about telling stories to kids. Sheer joy. Yes, i could see sheer joy in him while he was narrating to us the incident. I believe that he did slip into the memories of those days. I could guess where the topic would head to and it did!

Aim of life- to be happy. Zero marks if you said that. Aim of life is to achive perfect security :P. Some person somehow proved that in computer sc. no one can achive perfect security. So, what did the intellectuals do? They aimed for computatinal security. Security which is not perfect but given the resource now, you won't be able to distinguish it from perfect one. Yes, that is the aim of life. To get as close to perfect as possible. He raised some very fundamental questions: 'if all things that bring joy also bring pain, then theoritically is perfect joy achiveable?', 'if yes, how?'. Upon a question raised by my friend, 'aren't we too young to get into all this stuff', he replied, 'it's not the question that you want to happy forever or not, its the question about when you get into the state of mind to experience that unlimited joy, bliss.' He tried explaining what is happiness. He said happiness is not physical, it is a state of mind. That is the reason why one can become happy when he remembers fond memories from his past. That in turn proves that one can be happy if he wants. He even went and argued that 'sleeping with a girl is not wrong, nature made us that way. Morals and etiquete are all man made and can be broken, if you feel thats joy. But a word of caution. One must always remember that he is not an animal, and what differntiates him from animals is his intellect, so he must use his intellect and then do what he is doing.'.

On a lighter note: Aim of life - to be perfect. That is not achiveable, so be so close to it and others are not able to make out that you are not perfect.

Thank you Sir. for the cup of special tea and for such a wonderful talk.

Before i end this post, i would like to take this opportunity to thank bharti too because had she not been with me may be sir wouldn't have gotten into discussion and may be there wouldn't have been anything that i would have written about. Thank you Bharti

love letter

I don't Love you because of your pretty smile, else i would love Madhuri too,
I don't Love you for your sweet laughs, else Priety would complain too.

I don't Love you 'coz of your sexy body because if i do, i would love Priyanka too,
I don't Love Aishwarya's eyes because i feel they are not as deep as you.

I don't Love your melodious silken voice else i would have to answer Sushmita too,
I don't Love you because you are beautiful, else how will i explain my not loving Rani so.

I don't love you because of the way you walk, talk, listen or see. I don't Love you for your good and loving nature.

You are open minded but then i have other friends who are as open minded as you,
You are frank and there are others who are frank too.

I don't Love you for your passion because many of your sunsign will be more passionate than you,
I don't Love you because you list family above profession as there are girls willing to be housewives too.

When I am in your presence i feel like a better man but still i won't love you because I believe in God too,
I feel better when you are around but i feel so in the presence of my loving Mother like you.

I know you are honest, so i will be honest with you:
If you say 'yes', the way i feel i should love my wife I will Love you,
If you say 'no' you won't even know how much I loved you.

But its true that i don't know why I LOVE YOU

I am simple person, looking ahead to lead a peacefull life. I want live with peace and that is what you have stolen from me. You may not be my first thought in morning but you are. You are the last thought before i die every night. Since many days i haven't seen dreams of anyone other than you. Anyone i see, i meet i make comparisons in how much close she gets to you. And i am never surprised that no one even comes near you, be it beauty or character. You shine like the sun in my life. You have changed the way i look at others. I am busy but you see my mind escapes in your thoughts even when it is busy. I am experiencing a significant drop in my concentration. I am able to concentrate on your thoughts only.

All this while i have been feeling a kind of heaviness in my heart, and i had no one to tell it to. So, i thought 'who better than you'. So, here i am standing in front of you, asking from you to give me, whats mine: YOU

third day of swimming

Good morning
Today was my third day (session) to swimming pool. It was wonderful. Reason is simple : today i crossed the smaller pool. No, no, don't get scared. I crossed it width wise. But, for a beginner like me, it was a big achievement.

I'am loving it!

I believe....

This is a forward that came to me but i thought i was good to be preserved..so i kept it here for all

I Believe...

I believe-
that we don't have to change friends
if we understand that friends change.

I believe-
that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every
once in a while and you must forgive
them for that.

I believe-
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I believe-
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I believe-
that it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I believe-
that you should always leave loved ones
with loving words. It may be the last
time you see them.

I believe-
that you can keep going
long after you can't.

I believe-
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I believe-
that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I believe-
that regardless of how hot and
steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had
better be something else to take
its place.

I believe-
that heroes are the people
who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I believe-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe-
that my best friend and I can do anything
or nothing and have the best time.

I believe-
that sometimes the people you expect
to kick you when you're down,
will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe-
that sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me
the right to be cruel.

I believe-
that just because someone doesn't love
you the way you want them to doesn't
mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe-
that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them
and less to do with how many
birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe-
that it isn't always enough to be
forgiven by others. Sometimes you
have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken
the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe-
that our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe-
that just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do.

I believe-
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a
secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe-
that two people can look at the exact
same thing and see something totally.
different.

I believe-
that your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe-
that even when you think you have no more
to give, when a friend cries out to you
you will find the strength to help.

I believe-
that credentials on the wall
do not make you a decent human being.

I believe-
that the people you care about most in life
are taken from you too soon.